In the mode of Hod, this week, we strive for splendor through humility and acceptance.
We are still counting, as we continue our journey through the Omer period. Last week I wrote about the quality of Netzach - and how Jewish tradition teaches us to dig deep to find the fortitude and endurance we need to prevail. Today, as we conclude our fifth week of counting, we dwell inside the Divine aspect of Hod, which sits precisely opposite Netzach on the Kabbalistic map of the sefirot. There are times when the Netzach mode of digging in our heels and putting up a fight serves us well, but other times when it just doesn't make sense... and when we are better served by acknowledging that which we can't change and accepting it. In the mode of Hod, this week, we strive for splendor through humility and acceptance.
This week, I've been thinking back to the very first week of March, when Kavana wrestled with what to do about our community Purim megillah reading. You may recall that at that point, the first Covid deaths had just been announced here in King County, and most of us were still going to work and school, but we were already washing our hands and wiping down surfaces frequently. I remember struggling mightily with this hard call: I feared I would be letting our community down by not bringing people together in person to observe the holiday of Purim, but I was also nervous about the risks of gathering, especially as a large multi-generational group. Behind the scenes, staff members and board members and community members were all involved in the conversation, which generated a flurry of texts and emails... and so much angst. Once we finally made the decision to turn our Purim celebration into a virtual gathering, I suddenly found I could relax and breathe again (and, it turned out that our virtual Megillah reading was really pretty great!). For me, this was an illustration of Hod in action -- a time when the most beautiful path forward actually involved humbly submitting to forces beyond our control.
Ten-and-a-half weeks have gone by since then... ten-and-a-half weeks of Kavana existing with no in-person gatherings whatsoever. While trying to build an authentic, tightly-knit, meaningful Jewish community online has its challenges -- and absolutely isn't the same as being able to see each other in person -- I have found comfort in settling into this new reality. Our Virtual Candle-Lighting each Friday night has become such an important touch-point that a number of you have suggested we make this a permanent feature at Kavana moving forward. This week, I heard one set of parents describe Kavana's creative online kids' education programs as providing a "lifeline" for their children during this stay-at-home period. Kavana community members have supported each other in a whole host of ways, from food delivery to phone check-ins.
Accepting and leaning into the virtual realities of the moment has also opened up a whole host of new creative possibilities for how we here in Seattle can be part of broader Jewish endeavors. As we prepare for Shavuot, we couldn't be more excited about The Great Big Jewish Food Fest (May 19-28, a brainchild of our very own Kavana partner Lisa Colton!), and also about a special Tikkun Leil Shavuot called "DAWN" sponsored by Reboot and the Jewish Emergent Network. See below for more info about both of these incredible events!
Now, as Kavana is actively planning and budgeting for the coming year, I can already feel that things will get harder again as we move through the re-opening phases and have new, difficult decisions to make. We don't yet have all the answers about how our summer plans will unfold, nor about what the High Holidays will look like this year, nor about when in-person Shabbat services and B'nai Mitzvah celebrations will resume. (We do know, of course, that in our cooperative structure, we will continue to be guided by input from our partners, as well as government guidelines and public health and safety experts, and that we will err on the side of caution, valuing human life as we do!) This week, I'm imagining myself bottling some of the Hod of Omer week 5 -- the submission, humility and acceptance that have brought me peace recently -- so that hopefully we can draw on these reserves again as we move forward.
I'm grateful to be on this journey together... and wish you peace, beauty and contentment on this 35th day of the Omer,
Rabbi Rachel Nussbaum
We in the Kavana community are coming off of a beautiful Annual Partner Meeting this past Sunday(!), but still, I have to admit, the world around us continues to feel challenging to me right now. By way of example:
I'll be honest: this has felt like a very hard and heavy week so far... and it's only Wednesday! Although I can't say that the news out of the Supreme Court feels like a surprise, I do feel gutted and raw about the pending decision to overturn Roe v. Wade, and all that it portends for our American society. And, if that weren't enough, on our Jewish calendar, today was Yom HaZikaron, a national Memorial Day in Israel, a reminder of the high price of Jewish statehood and the ways that the ongoing conflict over land undermines security for all who call the land of Israel/Palestine home.
A week after Passover ends, we read in the Torah portion a strong reminder that we should truly leave Egypt behind. God tells the people, “You shall not copy the practices of the land of Egypt where you dwelt…” (Leviticus 18:3). Having taken the people out of Egypt, God wants to ensure that Egypt gets taken out of the people as well. Having lived there so long, they no doubt picked up habits, customs, rituals, beliefs, internalized oppression, false refuges, the strange comfort of known pain.