In the mode of Hod, this week, we strive for splendor through humility and acceptance.
We are still counting, as we continue our journey through the Omer period. Last week I wrote about the quality of Netzach - and how Jewish tradition teaches us to dig deep to find the fortitude and endurance we need to prevail. Today, as we conclude our fifth week of counting, we dwell inside the Divine aspect of Hod, which sits precisely opposite Netzach on the Kabbalistic map of the sefirot. There are times when the Netzach mode of digging in our heels and putting up a fight serves us well, but other times when it just doesn't make sense... and when we are better served by acknowledging that which we can't change and accepting it. In the mode of Hod, this week, we strive for splendor through humility and acceptance.
This week, I've been thinking back to the very first week of March, when Kavana wrestled with what to do about our community Purim megillah reading. You may recall that at that point, the first Covid deaths had just been announced here in King County, and most of us were still going to work and school, but we were already washing our hands and wiping down surfaces frequently. I remember struggling mightily with this hard call: I feared I would be letting our community down by not bringing people together in person to observe the holiday of Purim, but I was also nervous about the risks of gathering, especially as a large multi-generational group. Behind the scenes, staff members and board members and community members were all involved in the conversation, which generated a flurry of texts and emails... and so much angst. Once we finally made the decision to turn our Purim celebration into a virtual gathering, I suddenly found I could relax and breathe again (and, it turned out that our virtual Megillah reading was really pretty great!). For me, this was an illustration of Hod in action -- a time when the most beautiful path forward actually involved humbly submitting to forces beyond our control.
Ten-and-a-half weeks have gone by since then... ten-and-a-half weeks of Kavana existing with no in-person gatherings whatsoever. While trying to build an authentic, tightly-knit, meaningful Jewish community online has its challenges -- and absolutely isn't the same as being able to see each other in person -- I have found comfort in settling into this new reality. Our Virtual Candle-Lighting each Friday night has become such an important touch-point that a number of you have suggested we make this a permanent feature at Kavana moving forward. This week, I heard one set of parents describe Kavana's creative online kids' education programs as providing a "lifeline" for their children during this stay-at-home period. Kavana community members have supported each other in a whole host of ways, from food delivery to phone check-ins.
Accepting and leaning into the virtual realities of the moment has also opened up a whole host of new creative possibilities for how we here in Seattle can be part of broader Jewish endeavors. As we prepare for Shavuot, we couldn't be more excited about The Great Big Jewish Food Fest (May 19-28, a brainchild of our very own Kavana partner Lisa Colton!), and also about a special Tikkun Leil Shavuot called "DAWN" sponsored by Reboot and the Jewish Emergent Network. See below for more info about both of these incredible events!
Now, as Kavana is actively planning and budgeting for the coming year, I can already feel that things will get harder again as we move through the re-opening phases and have new, difficult decisions to make. We don't yet have all the answers about how our summer plans will unfold, nor about what the High Holidays will look like this year, nor about when in-person Shabbat services and B'nai Mitzvah celebrations will resume. (We do know, of course, that in our cooperative structure, we will continue to be guided by input from our partners, as well as government guidelines and public health and safety experts, and that we will err on the side of caution, valuing human life as we do!) This week, I'm imagining myself bottling some of the Hod of Omer week 5 -- the submission, humility and acceptance that have brought me peace recently -- so that hopefully we can draw on these reserves again as we move forward.
I'm grateful to be on this journey together... and wish you peace, beauty and contentment on this 35th day of the Omer,
Rabbi Rachel Nussbaum
During these Covid times, in my household, we've embraced every possible excuse for a celebration... including attempting to mark not only birthdays but also half-birthdays! Elisha's half-birthday is up next; right now he's closer to his 8th birthday, but in a few weeks, he'll pass the halfway point and tip closer to his 9th. Segmented in this way, the two halves of each year take on different characters, much like the two halves of a football game, with the halfway mark acting as a fulcrum, tipping us from "beginning" to "ending."
When I was 10 years old, my great-grandfather died early on Erev Pesach. He was buried just hours later (a hurried funeral, to get it in before chag began), and then my family sat down to our first night seder a few hours after that. That year and ever since, the co-mingling of bitterness and sweetness, sadness and joy has been an important feature of every Passover seder for me.